What I Feel

Have you ever felt no one understand you, even your close friend or parents nor families? I think, this is the time when you feel every single thing goes wrong. You won’t say about anything, to anyone.
Sky even cannot t hear you, sea cannot give you a fresh air no matter how beautiful it is for every single eye. But there is always a thing who make you to stand up and breathe again. And you start remembers your eyes, your hand was held a drink, in your little own chair and the face of your grandma’s smiling while ate a big burger.

But baby, don’t worry even life pull you down, just follow the flow.
Sometimes the colour of the clouds in the evening kissed by the sun is the only friend who understand. They seem like dancing all along. But fade away in few hours, they want to stay but destiny said no, so as sadness, it will disappear by the time goes.

You may be strong once, or might be forever. But just be a human, let the emotion that your body feel come out, if you are angry, be angry, be sad, be curious, disappointed, fear, tired, anything. Remember, human also has tha right to choose, it’s mean we can choose to be in the good or bad, check once again if you are angry, is it good for you? For others ? is it good to be sad? Yes, being a human and accept all of our emotions are important, but thnk twice. About good and bad.

Nowadays, many things drive me confused, I found difficulty in every single thing to differenciate which is good or bad. For Example, is it good to become a person who is fuckin busy and sacrifice time to our little family or close friend? Is it good if we have more problems each day? Is it the problem we made? Or the truth is, ourselves is the problem itself ? Is it good to no bestfriend for dodge the problem ? why are we so scared with problems? Is problem bad for you?

In my twenty-o moment, I found many strange and weird nor nerd characters I should or shouldn’t knew, to face, to discuss, to negotiate or even to listen a single story from them. We should learn, understand to the higher level of living called acceptance.

And more days i think, in acceptance, live teach us to say “ yaudah mau gimana lagi “ in Bahasa, that’s mean you are in ‘Adult’ world, or you have been touched by many weird problems or situations, or slapped by shit things over and over, and let’s say “ I don’t give a fuck” in English.
But baby if you want to continue what i feel, but not today. My brain is full of thinking politics, faith, my future, friends, else. Not overthinking, i just dumb enough to prioritize which one i should put first in my mind.

Let the sky hug me and you for a minute, feel the warm and drink your tea.